I won’t say I’m a true crime obsessive but I will say that it is one of things I do periodically get obsessed with and can’t get off of until I’m literally having nightmares and the rest of my world is suffering from a lack of decent rest. Criminal Minds is one of my favorite shows, I watch endless episodes of the many shows on Investigative Discovery. I read true crime books and I find myself down the Wikipedia rabbit hole of unsolved murders and missing persons and unidentified remains.
Fortunately, I haven’t completely succumbed to podcasts yet.
Like many people, I find serial killers endlessly fascinating, because they are so completely different than normal people. How can they do the terrible things they do? What are their methods? Their motives? What makes them tick? But it’s hard to study these things. The gruesome nature of the subject matter is the stuff of nightmares, and it’s hard not to feel like a ghoulish voyeur going through crime scene information and notes and message boards and anything you can get your hands on. You begin to worry if you’re like them, if you’re capable of such violence. You begin to relate to the victims. It’s a dark place and can become a very dark obsession that’s hard to pull yourself out of.
This book popped up as recommended for me in 2018, and I think that was around the time they arrested a 70+ year old man for the crimes extensively reported on by Michelle McNamara in her book I’ll Be Gone in the Dark: One Woman’s Obsessive Search for the Golden State Killer.
McNamara was the wife of well known comedian Patton Oswalt. She was a very talented writer, but she had issues with pills, and she actually died two years before the book was released due to an accidental drug overdose of prescription drugs. Oswalt, investigative journalist Billy Jensen, and crime writer Paul Haynes completed the book from her extensive notes after her death. Most of it was already written and just needed to be organized.
I haven’t read that many true crime books for the simple reason that most of them aren’t very well written. They’re informative and interesting enough but they don’t tell the story very well. The authors writing them are not true storytellers. They’re retired cops or investigative journalists (where storytelling technique isn’t the most important thing), or FBI agents, or in the case of the latest true crime book I read, a sports journalist, or whoever.
Let’s just say that the Truman Capotes don’t come along very often.
Michelle McNamara’s I’ll Be Gone in the Dark is the best true crime book I’ve read since In Cold Blood (which I have to revisit because I haven’t read it in years). It was captivating and smart and so completely captured the humanity of the Golden State Killer’s victims. She told their story and explained her investigation into this guy’s identity in such a way that didn’t feel voyeuristic, which is a feeling I sometimes get from true crime books. I didn’t feel like I was prying into the lives of victims in a ghoulish way at the worst moment of their existence, I was learning their names and their lives and they were becoming people I knew who happened to have a terrible thing happen to them, not exhibits who have emotional scars or worse on display for all to see.
This book didn’t lead to a tip that meant the arrest of the Golden State Killer, but it led to enough attention that the case came back into prominence. It couldn’t be ignored. McNamara wrote the book after writing articles on the serial rapist and serial killer she had coined “The Golden State Killer” for Los Angeles Magazine in 2013.
The Sacramento County Sheriff’s Department finally arrested Joseph James DeAngelo on April 24, 2018 and charged him with first degree murder based on DNA evidence, 42 years after his first rape. The statute of limitations had expired for his burglaries and rapes, so he couldn’t be charged with those crimes, but on June 29, 2020 DeAngelo plead guilty to 13 counts of first degree murder with special circumstances and 13 counts of kidnapping in order to avoid the death penalty.
Michelle McNamara has been gone for four years. She didn’t get to see the publication of her book, or see the arrest and guilty plea of a serial killer she was helping to find, or see her daughter grow up.
But this case, this book, ended up being her life’s work. It is good work. It’s a true crime book, but it’s more than that, because true crimes should be about more than just crime, and this book is those extra things. It’s a biography and a memoir – victims, law enforcement, ordinary citizens, the dark side of the American dream. It’s a book about what people can do when they pool resources to find someone who needs to be found. It’s a book about searching for justice.
It’s a true crime book, but it’s a really good true crime book. It’s a true crime book the way true crime books should be written, and if you’re going to read true crime books, you should read I’ll Be Gone in the Dark.